My blog is coming back, yay!!!! I got impatient and started fixing all the mangled html, and now some of it is mangled again because Xanga has finally got more of the root template stuff up. If anything, this relaunch onto new servers has taught me patience and hopefully a much better attitude about getting through trying events.
In the meantime I made a new composite blog at yablovh.wordpress.com to centralize all my personas into a collective One, as it were. In doing that I have come full circle back to my very first internet handle, Yablo.
Yablo was a funny mix but fit my personality perfectly. I got the name from the Yablo Sprite commercial (there were hundreds of Yablos on the internet back then) and used to describe Yablo on group lists as being a Vulcan in a Hawaiian shirt and sunglasses. I guess I got a little carried away enthusiastically pumping little cult fandom groups up, because one zealot drove 12 hours to my house and camped on my couch for a few days. I really don't encourage that... Yes, it got weird and kinda freaky, but a great learning experience. It's taken a few years to appreciate that even someone playing on a blog can develop a little fandom.
Yablo disappeared and Janika Banks emerged, went through another learning experience, and then Bluejacky was born. After Bluejacky disappeared, Pinky Guerrero slid onto the stage. These have been my main avatars representing myself to the world, but the Xanga relaunch catapulted me into a salvage frenzy that made me realize I need *all* of me to survive living on the internet. I must accept that my Spock & Spongebob mentality is a real thing, this is who I am, and only exposing bits and pieces of who I am gets me into all kinds of trubbas, because although readers seem to love the quirks, eventually the quirks kill the relationships without more context.
I am Janika Yablo Banks, aspie eccentric, with mucho verbal skillz. I am realizing it's up to me to create my world for reals, and that I really do need friends around me.