Month: June 2009

  • old survey from 11-11-07

     
    1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
    Gee, why can't my hair have this much body during the day...  Well, I guess it would if I didn't wash it, it would look like I just got out of bed.  But you know what I mean.  Right now I look like Sock from Reaper.  Yes, his nickname is Sock, short for Wysocki.  Ok, I found a picture of his hair for you.  It actually looks pretty tame here, so you have to imagine mine being a bit wilder.

     




    2. How much cash do you have on you?
    When you get stamps from a machine, the dollars you get back are those new coins that are about the same size as quarters.  I have five of those.  I haven't counted the pennies in awhile.  I can't tell you how many egg mcmuffins I've gotten over the years just picking up other people's pennies that they don't want.  I've actually seen people sweep change up and throw it in the ~trash~.  And then they go gripe about the cost of gas or something.  Makes ya wonder how many tens of thousands of dollars might be in garbage dumps across America because they aren't 'worth' picking up.  A penny is MONEY, you dorks.

    3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
    I was about to write 'hot chocolate', but then Skeletor popped into my head.  Boy, haven't heard that name in a long time.

    4. Favorite planet?
    mRpl's home planet.  I really need to get back there some day.

    5.Silver or gold?
    I kind of lean toward colored decorations on my Christmas tree.  And cookies and candy.  We grew up putting strings through cutout cookies to hang on the tree, and after a week or so on a real pine tree, cookies taste really super good.

    6. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
    French hook earrings.  All of them.

    7. What shirt are you wearing?
    I just realized I should have some music going in my ears to help wake me up.  Hang on.

    8. Do you "label" yourself?
    I like the word 'freakazoid'.  I put on "A Night at the Roxbury" cd, by the way.

    9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
    ~Waaaayy~ too early for shoes...  Ok, I'll explain.  Scott popped awake at 2:30 this morning and decided to get his shower and go into work early.  Then he got on the computer after his shower and didn't leave until 4.  I finally fell back asleep a little bit after that, and then his alarm clock went off a few minutes later...  Now I can't get back to sleep again, so I'm trying to wake up.  I've technically been awake since 2:30 with a ten minute nap, but I feel like I'm drunk or something.

    10. Bright or Dark Room?
    Wo, the 'dark' is capitalized.    Sounds ominous.  Darkish for waking up, bright for making cookies.

    11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
    I think it would have helped if they'd had a disco cd going.  I don't like to outright call someone boring, but dang.  Get some brain waves flowing.  Pretending to be Jack Sparrow in your own fantasy fiction on a survey isn't exactly a brain wave.

    13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
    I remember this crazy dream I was having about way in the future, animals had evolved to really strange weird things, and the cities were empty and crumbling.  We (I was some guy with a few other leftover ragtag humans) had figured out there was a power source for an automatic door in one of the buildings and were trying to use that to figure out how to build some kind of force shield to keep the animals out, because the glass was all gone, and wouldn't have held if it had been there.  It wasn't our first experience with random electricity, and we had already deduced that electricity itself could be the shield somehow.  Written language was long gone, everything we did or discovered was a total accident, and we had to figure stuff out on the fly.  Scott said I was making a bit of noise before he got up.  I'm sure I was trying to talk in my sleep.

    14. What was the last message you sent?
    If I really was remote viewing into the future in my sleep, I was sending a message of knowledge about electricity, yes?  I'm no expert, but I remember it seemed pretty exciting to the group.  Wish I'd had a camera, those animals were pretty funky.

    15. Where & what is your nearest/favourite tavern?
    I'm NOT going to go get the yellow pages.  You'll just have to find it on your own.

    16. What's a word that you say a lot?
    Please don't ask an aspie something that can be quantified like this.  I'm tempted to literally look back through this survey and get a ratio on words most used.

    17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
    *No* one ever says "I loved you last".  Are you nuts?

    18. Last furry thing you touched?
    *gag*  Sorry, the last survey taker wasn't cool.  And no, it's not even what you're thinking.

    19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
    *counting*   *still counting*  hang on... carry the three... ok, now for the green ones...

    20. How many BEST friends have you got? (Name them if you want)
    Hang on, I'm still counting the drugs.

    21. Favorite age you have been so far?
    I seem to be entering the Age of Wisdom.  I thought the Age of Reason was pretty good, but this Age looks even more promising.

    22. Your worst enemy?
    Dead batteries.

    23. What is the current book you are reading
    I am currently involved in 3 library books.  I was into Uri Geller long before he recently became a household name on tv this year, so I rechecked one of his old books.  I don't watch his show, by the way, I think it's dumb.  But the books are all right.  Another is Future Memory, and another is about children having memories of past lives.  My thoughts?  I'm amazed that all this thinking outside the box, as it were, is still so primeval.  We keep assuming it's all about EARTH.  As if being human is the whole in itself.  As if being sentient as we know it is the starting point and the ending point and the gauge by which we measure all else in this universe.  It doesn't occur to anyone, not even Uri, that we are not bound by a forward progression of time in either inter or intra life spans, and that this universe is not the only place we can exist as either corporeal or spiritual selves.  And I'm not trying to be mystical or new age or anything, I'm not into that stuff.  I'm just saying that even those with open minds limit themselves far too much.  Catch up with the quantum age, for Pete's sake, it's already been around for a century.

    24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
    I called Scott up and thanked him for the alarm going off.  Don't worry, I was polite.

    25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
    Define 'fly'.  Do you mean float effortlessly through the air at will, or will I have to work really hard to do it via my own muscles or some kind of contraption?  And the million bucks-- how much is coming out in taxes and fees?

    26. Do you like someone?
    As much as I can like anyone who leaves the alarm set after they've left early for work.  Ironically, he loaned his key to someone else and couldn't get in until another coworker showed up, so he wasn't really early at all.  Just one of those very mixed up dumb days.

    27. The last song you listened to?
    "A Little Bit of Ecstacy".  But I've gone into full blown nasty headache and turned the cd off.
     
    I think the difference between me and people who feel driven to achieve no matter what is that I've learned to go back to bed, which I'm thinking about doing now.  Sort of ironic, considering I spent the first 20 years of my adult life not sleeping much at all.  But I slammed through chemistry and economics and algebra and psychology and just tons of stuff at sunrise over the years, I've been at work by 5 or 6 a.m. for nearly a decade (or worked through every stinkin holiday and weekend closing), so now--- I'm going back to bed.  Because I can.  I have a cousin with multiple PhD's who is hoping to become the Surgeon General to the United States one day.  Now THAT'S motivation.  I could do that, too, keep slamming through college and jobs trying to ~be~ somebody.  But you know what?  I'm going back to bed.  If you think I suck, then maybe you need to lighten up and go back to bed yourself.  Besides, I can't have coffee.  And besides, I'm reading 3 library books about scientific study and anyalysis that have nothing to do with romance or fiction.  I'm at least still exercising my mind and widening my knowledge base.  I worked at a used book store for awhile, and one lady would come in with this huge 3 ring binder notebook with color coded cross referencing tabs and stuff.  She had kept a record of every single book she'd ever read in her life, including a short one paragraph synopsis on each one, all arranged by author and title and then assembled into genre.  She took her reading hobby very seriously and claimed to have read over ten thousand books, and she kept a separate dated list of titles she'd read, in order of reading, just to prove it.  I asked her if that included stuff like geographical surveys and culture studies, and she said no, she only read fiction, mostly romance, mystery, semi-historical stories, biographies, drama, stuff like that.  I asked her if she had a hard time reading around work, and she said she never worked.  So here's a woman doing nothing on this planet but hitting used book stores and soaking up every bit of imaginary scenario that can possibly be invented and cataloging her life into this binder, and who will care?  When she dies, who will look at that notebook?  What is her motivation, her compulsion to live this way, to avoid reality and stay locked in a fantasy world with no other life?  DOES IT MATTER?  ~No~.  She has a hobby, she's very good at it, and she's probably more qualified than anyone on this planet to write a treatise on the evolutionary history and impact of fiction on our society.  She's an ~expert~.  So I say, what is the difference?  I'm going back to bed.  Scott will try to make me feel guilty later to counter for feeling guilty about the alarm going off, but I don't care.
     
    By the way, the survey ended at 27 for some reason, so there you go.
     

  • good vs. evil

     
    I'm reading a book right now about Bush 2's White House staff that took control after 9/11.  I normally don't care for the details of political game playing, but it's interesting seeing how long some of those people have been around.  Presidents come and go, staff lingers on for decades in one capacity or another.  Something the American people don't seem to notice.  I keep telling people that presidents are just puppets, just a means to an end, just a conduit for the real action, just a poster person for the public, but I don't see very many other people saying that.  Running into a real book about it was pretty cool.  I liked Bush 2, but I said way back that he was stuck with circumstances and being hustled into things that went against the grain of his beliefs, BUT, if you really step back and look at the bigger picture, Republicans were headed down the same road as Democrats a long time ago.  Finding out that both were represented in the exclusive Bilderberger group (the Trilateral Commission) was a tad shocking, but not really surprising.  The second I found out Condoleezza Rice is a member (List of Bilderberg participants), I realized we're ON the road to Big Brother, not just wavering on and off as Republicans and Democrats wrest power from one another.  And this is now the cry that is going up, that Republicans were doing it after all, but the Democrats are just doing it faster.
     
    There are big movements around the world to "kill capitalism" (that's actually what they call it), because (and I agree with this part) big corporations are out of control.  BUT.  In a global economy, world trade, and billions of people, you need global corporations.  OR, you need big government.  One or the other, I think they're both evil.  I'm all for free market.  But I have thought about this for a long time, and I don't see how free market can exist in a global economy, except in local pockets, and local pockets find ways to exempt themselves from regulation and taxation, so governments find ways to make local trade a criminal activity until it can be controlled.  There is the illusion of free market systems, of course, but in order to control runaway power, someone has to BE the power.  We've seen runaway power happen in monopolies and oligarchies, mafias and triads, scams of all kinds, and especially covert terrorist groups, and by saying this I also include any country that suffers bombings and killings based on belief systems, so this also includes militant Christians and blacks, not just Muslim jihadists.
     
    There is great big stuff going on 'out there'.  Thankfully it's not in my street or neighborhood, but it's been happening in real life to millions of people for centuries, for millennia.  I was a child when I heard news stories about people trying to escape across Russian borders, the Berlin wall, Chinese poverty (cannibalism was legal in China when I was a child), Israeli-Jordan border skirmishes, and of course, the Viet Nam war was a never ending news story.  The kids growing up now don't see this stuff, they are shielded from terrible things by parents, by censoring, by entire channels that never show world news or talk about what is going on out there.  Millions of U.S. citizens are so spared of these images that they can't even imagine what life must be like without a convenience store up the street, without phones and a refrigerator, much less without half their town being under massacre.  I remember the very first al-Qaeda transmission of a U.S. citizen taken prisoner and having his head sawn off, and that transmission was so shocking that they were halfway done before anyone regained their senses enough to yank it off the air.  And ever since then, all al-Qaeda transmissions have been screened, we don't see this stuff.
     
    I don't know why I'm writing all this.  I guess it's just irking me that we're so distracted with the whole Letterman-Palin thing.  Whose kid ~hasn't~ been dissed by other parents in a high school gym during a sporting event?  Geez.  Letterman won, his ratings spiked during the whole new Letterman vs. Conan stuff, and people still don't get it.  If I'd been Sarah Palin and the press was all over me about how I feel about my kid being joked about like that, I'd just laugh and shut the door.  Responding to silly crap only gives your opponent more power.  I liked Letterman years ago, but he's not an icon in my house (neither is Conan), and I have a life.  People jumping on both sides of the fight over this were ridiculous.  You know why we do this?...
     
    The majority of U.S. citizens no longer know what evil is because we don't SEE evil.  I'll make an exception for the severely abused and those who are kidnapped for human trafficking, and I've seen how a drug war in a big city goes down with my own eyes.  Most of this stuff is done so quietly that we never blink an eye.  Someone's missing, oh, that's too bad, and we go on.  No one is bombing our favorite store or shattering glass up and down our street.  And I'm not advocating that, make no mistake.  But by censoring our worldwide news to the point where we find a little live blood too distasteful to be bothered with during our evening meal, then WE have become sick, sick people.  We should be outraged.  Well, we are, we're outraged that it wasn't censored...  So we turn on people like Letterman instead.  And he gets paid even more money over all the attention he's getting.  Have we learned ~nothing~?  The biggest book deals come out of the most ridiculous controversies, et al.
     
    I have no idea what to do about any of this.  All I know is that I'm watching all this stuff and just shaking my head.  Do we *want* to remain blissfully ignorant?  Good and evil is more clearly demarcated in cartoons children watch, I just don't get what's wrong with the adults.
     
  • 'Deep Stuff' survey

     

    Let the summer reruns begin!  I did this one on 11-08-07 and it was never public, until now.
     
     
     
    The 'Deep Stuff' Survey

    1. Do you think you were well raised?
    I think the best part of the whole thing was watching my mom roll out pie dough.  Pastry just somehow makes the world a better place, you know?  Yes, I obviously sidestepped this one.

    2. Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
    It involves a cadbury egg.

    3. How do you handle stress?
    Violent headaches are good for that.  Nothing takes your mind off like a completely disabling headache.

    4. How would you spend your last day alive?
    How would you spend your 14,600th day alive?  I spent that day over a 'pot sticker' in a museum quality Chinese restaurant with my parents and have some really funny memories.  I suppose I'll spend my last day alive dying.  Duh.  Wonder if I'll cough up blood or convulse or lie in an agonizing twisted wreckage.  Well, you asked...

    5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
    I'm aspie.  Guilt is for the normals.

    6. If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which side would you go to?
    Let's say I'm already on one side of the street.  Like the true love side.  I would take his hand and cross to the money side.  Or, if I were starting out on the other side, I'd pick up the money and cross to the true love side.  You know, this really isn't a hard question.  Aspies takes rhetorical questions very literally.

    7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with?
    Oh, gee, sometimes we prayed for them to divorce so Mom would calm down, but it never happened.  I'm sure I wouldn't have had a choice, knowing my mom.  But if I'd had a choice, I'd have just left everyone.  But that was so long ago, it doesn't matter now.

    8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you chose?
    Egads, who is creating this survey?  My closest friends ARE family members.  Let's reword the question, shall we?  If you had 5 friends and a family member to save from a burning wreckage, would you save family or friends first?  And here I'd answer-- the closest and easiest, and then the next one, and the next...  I'd do the logical thing and not weigh it down with who I *like* better.  Or let's say you're hanging out with Jack Bauer and HE gives you this choice, eh?  And you KNOW they're gonna die.  There you go, real toughie there.  And of course, the method of death wasn't specified.  Slow death in a hospital?  Fast death drowning or burning or being shot?  It seems like a very passive question to me, who would I ~choose~ to have die.  What do you mean, like if a guy with a gun told me to choose and then I'd have to watch him shoot them?  See, questions like these are almost useless.  I wonder if ~*~anyone~*~ filling out this survey chose to be the one to die to save the others...?  Hmmm...

    9. Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member?
    My best friend was murdered in college.  If I were to go into the details of her murder, everyone reading this survey would want to lynch the murderers, no second thoughts.  I assume we're talking premeditated, and not just some random shooting incident.  And it would depend on who the family member is-- kid, parent, sibling, spouse?  Because it would be much easier to forgive a drunk driver who took out an adult than a pedophile who slayed a child and hid the body, you know?

    10. What is the worst thing you've ever done that your parents DONT know about?
    There are ~so~ many things they don't know about, this is pretty laughable.  At least I didn't kill anyone.  I don't think.  I'm pretty sure no one was killed.



    - The love stuff

    1. Do you think you know the meaning of true love?
    Yes, of course.  True love is being someone's hero, no matter what you have to endure, without thought of reward or comfort back for yourself, because you love that person so much that you don't hold them responsible for your own pain, anguish, and suffering in loving them.  If you don't learn that having a baby, then you are pretty thick.  And if you don't get that kind of love as a child, you look for it everywhere else, which puts a real burden on an intimate partner or friend just being human.  True love isn't about the finding of it, it's about the giving of it.

    2. The last time you kissed someone... was it someone you see yourself kissing again?
    I need a t-shirt that says "Scott can't peel me off."

    3. When AND/OR WHO was your last kiss?
    And THEN he tells me tonight he feels like he might be getting sick, and went to bed two hours early.  So I probably got his cooties.

    4. Whats the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
    Well, it can't be sex, because I'm like a praying mantis lately-- Scott is terrified I'll chomp his head while he's copulating.  I think it's food.  The most important thing, I mean, not Scott's head.  When someone walks in the door crabby, you feed them something good, and then everything gets better.  I've never seen this fail.

    5. Are you one to kiss and tell?
    I just noticed that number 6 below here is missing...  I'm wildly curious what in the world that one could have been, even though the rest of these seem pretty mundane compared to all the death stuff a few minutes ago.  Ok, back to the question.  Kiss and tell, um... yes, I am.  I can't help it.  I always tell Scott when I need money for something.  Vague questions deserve vague answers.

    7. Your most recent ex... you guys still friends?
    It's actually a heart wrenchingly sad story that neither one of us will ever heal from, with the sort of evil tinge that colors your soul forever.  "Friends" in this context would have to be so ludicrously twisted that you wouldn't recognize the word.  The word "betrayal" doesn't even begin to explain the agonizing plunge into perdition.  My naivete and trust were certainly my undoing.  Love is love is love, right?


    8. If your parents didn't like the person you were dating.. would you lose em?
    Scott passed the test with flying colors.  No one else did, but I went out with them anyway and ruined my life.

    9. Do you see yourself ever being with someone you've been with before?
    Let me quote that part again-- "and ruined my life".  Sorta self explanatory there.

    10. If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
    Laugh.  The fools!  I'd sit back in my lawn chair in my sunglasses and a drink and enjoy the show.  Actually, my best friend is Scott, so that means he'd have to be gay, and I'm sure they'd each take an instant dislike to the other.  And there might be a chainsaw accident, because Scott knows about the sad story.
     
    Well, this survey ended rather abruptly.  Guess the creator ran out of 'deep stuff'.  I think it would have been pertinent to ask whether any animals were harmed during all this deep stuff.
     

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